When people say things like ‘oh you are not alone other people also have the same issue` I roll my eyes because stfu how is that supposed to make me feel any better.
I’ve been lonely for the longest time, and it leads me straight to the door of depression, but I’ve been doing good with choosing happiness intentionally but throw in being broke and unemployed in the mix and it’s hard to not slip back.
The thing about it is I told myself ill allow myself to be depressed just for today but the second I thought that I felt an excitement of going back to what I know. I spent so long depressed it started to feel like it was my default setting, being happy feels like I’m pretending to be something I’m not and its tiring pretending.
Everyone is preaching ohh enjoy your own company, but damn shouldn’t there be limits to this shit. Sighhh I don’t feel like writing anymore, so Imma leave it here I guess. I’ll keep trying my best to choose happiness.